[21] It's Just The Radio

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Playing my sad guitar.
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You know, insanely tired - lack of sleep due to frequent traffic under my window.
Everything sounds louder.
Everything appears slower.
Everything feels disconnected.

I can stand anywhere and I will see different lives in an opaque, fluid like surface living alongside my own solid line. Different lives of my own. Not others. Overlapping. Creating this textured layered complexity. Lives which continued existing once their existence ceased to prolong in my current reality. The 'what if' lives. The hindsight lives.
They don't exist permanently. Times of solitude one will skip past unknowingly, merge ever so slightly with my reality and then fold back in to the backdrop. A face, a time, a place, a sound, sight, smell - initiates it. Not a memory. These aren't triggers for memory - they are triggers in to parallel present continuance.


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Playing my happy guitar.
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You know - elated. Recovered from restless nights.
Everything sounds harmonious.
Everything appears brighter.
Everything feels warmer.

I'm here. A little more integrated in to the goings on of the capital. A participator rather than an onlooker. May have found the right shoes to guide my lost feet.